So I burned my thumb while using the bunsen burner (because sometimes I forget how big the flame is), and my other thumb is angry from being super-peely yesterday. I’m just falling apart at the seams.
Also some anxiety has come back. Probably because I have to go to my parents’ house this weekend for Easter. They are very stressful.
Was supposed to go to Adam’s house to watch Game of Thrones tonight, but there’s too much work to do. And I’m feeling hella crappy too. No fun. He’s not pleased, but whatever. I’m sure he has other friends to hang out with tonight.
I just hope I can still spin with my thumbs like this. Thumbs are important, yo.
My coworkers are moving off into their own clique without me. It kind of makes sense since they’re both postdocs, from other countries, coupled/married, live on similar side of town. I’m the boring single American. But yeah. Feeling down today. Checked up on some former students on fb today, then got sad. I wish I could help them leave wv. But I can’t. Also, I keep looking into Candida’s cage, and she’s not there. Adds more to the sad. Blargh.
I turned my okc profile back on, because I wanted people to tell me I was pretty/attractive/interesting. Now there’s a few messages I actually want to respond to, but I’m not feeling in the right head space to do that just yet. But soon, I think.
DO YOU EVER JUST HAVE THE BIGGEST FUCKING CRUSH ON SOMEONE EVER AND YOU JUST KNOW IT WONT WORK BECAUSE THEY’RE TOO OLD OR YOU’RE NOT GOOD ENOUGH OR THEY ARE TOO ATTRACTIVE FOR YOU SO YOU PRETTY MUCH SPEND WHAT FEELS LIKE ETERNITY HAVING THIS UNEXPLAINABLE FEELING FOR THEM UNTIL IT RIDS YOU OF THE SMALL BIT OF HEART YOU HAVE LEFT UNTIL YOU FIND ANOTHER PERSON TO HAVE THE SAME SHITTY FEELING TOWARDS
(Source: citzn, via generalgammahiddles)
Our lab gecko, Candida, died. I’m not like crying-sad about it, but I do feel a bit empty.